Do I need a Doctor?

My medical history reads like a horror story, I've had medical mishaps (a.k.a malpractices), misdiagnosis, botches surgeries, and I think the worst one: I was prescribed a medication called Liptor that gave me horrible, painful side effects, and then it caused me to developed T2D (type 2 diabetes), which in addition to the first itself has brought on other conditions such as severe cataracts in both eyes when I was beyond to young to have them? I would up getting 4 cataract surgeries, and I've gone from being nearsighted to farsighted (I can see a mile down the road, seriously) and my vision went from being legally blind to almost 20/20 vision. That would be my one single happy ending in all of this, better eyesight, but the road to that victory was hellish on a good day, I fought for the surgery to keep my eyesight at all, 3 surgeries were cancelled, I had bad insurance, and I only got the surgery pushed through because I called the Dept of Health and complained. After I was in recovery, the Opthalmologist told me the cataracts was caused by the T2D, which traced back to Liptor, and when I looked up the medication, I found a page of lawsuits and lawyer services going back to 2015, yet that medication is still on the market? They prescribe it for "high cholesterol", and it was nothing but agony. They have a saying about the cure being worse than the disease, but here we have a so-called cure for over thing causing a disease far worse, and who is to blame? I blame the doctors who prescribed it, and would nag me in a condescending fury to take it. I also found out that the pharmaceutical companies would pay the doctors 'incentives" to get their patients to take it, which I'm pretty sure is illegal? It was the last straw for me, my little trust in doctors was gone after that, and the truth about the medical industry is slowly raising to the surface, way too slowly. I stopped taking Liptor, albeit to late, but my doctor at the time said my T2D was not caused by anything but me, I stopped seeing her shortly after, and it was messy. I was taking metformin for the T2D, and synthroid for hypothyroid, she was supposed to prescribe enough including refills until I found a new doctor, but she managed to cancel both, including any refills, which shocked myself and the pharmacy, but we couldn't stop her, and beyond putting in a grievance, I was pretty stuck unmedicated. Those were 2 medications I'd been told never to skip, the consequences could be devastating, oh no, what will I do. I did what I could do, nothing, and as far as I know the results from not having those must have medications are also nothing? 

To put it in simpler terms, I'm fine, and it really makes me wonder if I ever had those devastating conditions in the first place? I had a few other conditions in addition to those 2 invalid ones, and yes I have invalidated them, who can stop me? I allegedly also have high blood pressure and anxiety, PTSD and one doctor even said lupus? That last one isn't something anyone should be misdiagnosed with, and I told that idiot to go check my chat again and make sure he know what he was talking about. He never admitted anything one way or another, he just dropped the subject. After all of this, high blood pressure and anxiety would come naturally, or in the form of more pills, and if I have PTSD it's caused by fear of doctors, I don't think I have any of those 3? Years ago, when I was caught up and stuck as a victim of the American Medical industry, I took probably 10 pills a day for whatever they said I had, and said I had to take, now I do believe all of those pills have been cancelled. I do take alternatives, supplements, and no not gummies! I now take Moringa, the leaves of which are almost a miracle in health and nutrition, look it up, the info on it takes up too much space, and you don't need a link, just search the word. I take Irish sea moss, search that too. I take collagen, Nad+, K4D3 or something like that, I don't get in sun enough so I'm missing vitamin D from it, and vitamin K, and last but not least Boron. If I were going to add to it, I'd get magnesium, vitamin c, all the vitamin B, and a few others, but you get the idea. I've become my own doctor, not completely by choice, but by necessity. I still get my flu shot every year, and I was getting the COVID set, I found out that you can't get it if you have any skin condition with an open wound, which was something on my legs brought on by T2D, and I have to be very careful about it, but what I have gotten must be working, because I have gotten COVID, my own mother can't figure that one out, she's been boosted and everything, and she's had it every year since the get go. I don't know, I follow the guide lines, I wash my hands, I don't stand that close to people, and I am cautious. The anxiety is at an all time low, my blood pressure should be down thanks to Moringa, and in any case, all those medications seem like they were unnecessary, and right now the doctors do too.

It's not just working about the honestly and integrity of doctors, I don't want my life to depend on them or their pills, I want to live, thrive, feel healthy and strong, and know that no matter what happens to society, I'll know how to survive, how to live well with confidence, and when it comes to decisions regarding my self and my body, I want those decisions to be made by no one other than me.